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沒有妳在我有多難熬

沒有妳煩我有多煩惱

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
說不上為什麼

我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開

nothing last forever. i find tis saying r damn accurate n true. wat i had n cherish now may b gone tmr. i jz graduate frm scm… feeling relieve and kind of depress at d same time. my routine and social lifes seems 2 b turning 360 degree. i gain a lot of freedom but now i felt it 2 b meaningless. sum may say tat now i am finish wit my diploma, i am closer 2 my goal. however it seem more far 2 reach for me. my determination drop every single day n every single second. its lk thr r a voice in my head saying jz give up, its no use, u r useless… now, im finding a gd degree course (which is d hardest ting, u have no idea malaysia hav how many col n uni) n trying 2 b as optismistic as i could. hoping 2 find wat i wan soon, if oly sum1 gets me sum hint.

as if tat is not enough, after christmas thr wil b another disaster happen 2 me. it was so damn shocking i dun even wan 2 mention wat is it. ( mostly b cuz im tired of typing so long ) haiz… really mis my carefree life n my frens…

“I believed that it couldn’t be, that it wasn’t.
There is simply no way that I could be in love with you~
It is just petty jealousy,
I am just feeling lonely.
I tried to deceive myself.
But now I can’t hide from it any longer-

I Think I love You~ that’s how it seems~
Cause I Miss You~ when you’re not around
I can’t do anything
I keep thinking about you
If I look at how things are I know~
I’m Falling For You~ I didn’t realize it-
Now I Need You~ all the time
Located so deep in my heart
Now I see it is you-

Maybe we are not suited to each other
It would be good if we are just friends -um-
From one to ten, we never agree on anything-
How can we have a relationship?
People say we won’t be able to do it
I keep saying it
But now I hate to do it any longer-

I Think I love You~ that’s how it seems~
Cause I Miss You~ when you’re not around
I can’t do anything
I keep thinking about you
If I look at how things are I know~
I’m Falling For You~ I didn’t realize it-
Now I Need You~ all the time
Located so deep in my heart
Now I see it is you-

I didn’t realize how I felt about you, Woo~
Why couldn’t I see?
It was right in front of me~~ Hoo~ yeah~
That whole time you were right next to me
Why is it now that I finally see that it is love?~~ Hoo-

I Think I love You~ that’s how it seems~
Cause I Miss You~ when you’re not around
I can’t do anything
I keep thinking about you
If I look at how things are I know~
I’m Falling For You~ I didn’t realize it-
Now I Need You~ all the time
Located so deep in my heart
Now I see it is you-

I really feel vy kek sim abt my bff bf le. Dunno wat 2 do de. Ya la we 2 not ngam but dun la let it out on d gf. Kelian her le being in d middle. Fyi I nvr say u in front of ur gf le. Even though I pek chek abt u I also jz let it go oly lo. How come u as a guy kenot?

Me as fren also noe how 2 tink 4 her, u as bf dunno how 2 tink 4 her pula. Now she go uni hav 2 study vy hard d le u stil put sum more pressure on her. Its not tat I say u dun care abt her la. I noe u lk her n take care of her whn she sick. I also nvr say tat u r bad but sum times I feel tat u r not tie xin enough lo

U might tink I bz body n vy fan but tink la 4 her. If u tink tat I am wrong den u can come n confront it wit me. I wil apologize. I hav 2 say tat I am a vy straightforward person n sum times I kek ppl d also I dunno but u can tel me de. I dun mind tis kind of ting. Jz dun let it out on ur gf.

No need 2 b so pai seh de. Tat time c get u lk pai seh pai seh can feel pek chek de le. (It’s my prob la but feel lk telling out also)

although d title cal crazy couple la but d oly crazy 1 is d male 1, as d female is my fren… even though 2 of them r couple n stuff, there r stil sum boundaries between them. it is breaking my heart when he offend her lk tis. i dunno if she noe abt it but i hav faith in her tat sum day she wil realise her mistake. seriously d more i tink of it, d more i agree wit her parents (n 2 tink tat i’m d rebel 1) he jz an idiot tat does not worth any1 lk her. but , it seem tat i am d oly 1 tat had tis though. al tis while, i though i understood her. but when it come 2 tis, i felt our long friendship might oly be a dream. i may not c wat u c in him, u 2 also didnt c wat i c. it might b 2 late, but its always better late den never.

i am hurt, scare, bored, angry n full of hatred. i need sum1 tat r able 2 help me out of tis. but who? i cant tink of any1. for i am sure those i love wont love me d same way i am 2 them. n b cuz of tat, i prefer 2 keep myself quiet. i dun mind being lonely as long as they r happy. i dun mind sacrificing myself as long as they able to obtain wat they wan. however when i look at myself in d mirror, i couldnt c wat i wanted 2 c.

when u wake up in d morning d first ting wat u wanna do is 2 get back 2 bed  n slp d whole day away ? tats always happen 2 me… my college break jz started few days ago n now i feel lk a pile of sh*t…. i try my best 2 stand up n do sum ting…. even its go shopping o eat… at less i’m doing sum ting…. but al i wan is 2 lie down n d whole day gone…. i felt lk i’m getting weaker n pale day by day… i dun hav any ting tat can let me look forward 2…. sum ting tat gav me d energy 2 at less get out of d hse… instead of facing d comp 24/7…..

2 day suppose 2 b a normal day tat same with my daily routine… unfortunately, there born a demon in my group…. wat she done had been complete insane… i dont noe how i wil be able to forgive her and yet forget abt wat happen 2day…. tis is a reminder 2 all of my fren tat dun trust ur close 1 2 much… cuz u wil regret it…. very much

al d time i had been complaining abt wats wrong wit my life, but i seldom tot of, wats gd in my life…. watching my fren always argue wit their parent, fight wit their bf/gf, boh song wit those tat they hate in col….. oly i realise, actually i have a pretty gd life… almost every day no worry… no need 2 work… have ppl to make fun of… able 2 joke around… i really mis out a lot 4 not appreciating my life earlier…. i hope now its stil not late… n i able 2 enjoy watever i can…. i jz realise how little ting tat i have done, (at least not enough 4 me) i wanna be a part in my fren life…. b a part in my family n mayb b a part in d society…. til now, i jz cant 4giv myself 4 being so blind